At first, I absolutely loved being inside and doing nothing all day and hanging out with my family all the time, but in my current living situation there were 3 of us in 1 room. Zoom schedules were a complete catastrophe. School however was becoming easier to be lazy and unfocused in. Until the end of Fall 2020 when I failed Chemistry and thought that my whole college experience would be ruined. Fast forward to now, and I am not going to lie, I wish everything was still shut down and closed and I didn't have to leave my house. Not because I want there to be a pandemic but because I didn't feel all this pressure to perform daily tasks. Every day now, it feels as though I go through the motions and am always concerned with what people are thinking of me. With this pressure, however, my laziness during Fall of 2020 could not cut it for the following quarters. After taking Writing 39A I felt as though I had substance but not a whole lot to back me up as far as my story telling goes. I am better at giving a correct answer rather than write a paper about a made up story you need to tell. But, in 39B, I was not expecting this either, my professor broke writing down in a way that made a lot more sense to me. I still get frustrated though because I feel like everyone else always sees this underlying meaning or connection back to something and I never do. It makes me feel stupid. I am not sure if it's because I have poor skills or if I really am just that air heady. I am very good at justifying my writing with evidence, but when it comes to analogies and dissecting a piece I freeze. I am not sure if it's because I am trying to look for a right answer or if I'm just not seeing anything at all. It mainly feels like the second option, but sometimes not. This week I didn't feel dumb. I felt like I knew exactly what was going on in the articles we read. One topic that really threw me for a loop was the idea that animals have better reproductive odds when they have friends. Never in my wildest dreams would I have guessed that that was a thing. What was even more astounding to me was the fact people thought if animals did this, could humans? And then we come to find out that those who do have more friends are more likely to live a longer life. Not exactly the same, but there is a similarity in that friendships have health impacts. Another thing that took me aback was the fact that people did not know if animals could feel or not. In my head, I would think that animals would feel emotions. Obviously they can't tell us (except for a couple of the ones who sign or use the images/colors to speak), but why has it ever been doubted was my question? Elephants mourning the death by stopping at bones found is not only heart breaking, but it goes to show the emotions behind the relationships animals have with one another. Same thing like the ape example, where one of the apes died and they had been best friends for years, and the other seemed almost literally visibly sad. These were by far the most intriguing things to me out of the TIME articles. Honestly, I wasn't expecting to like them as much as I do. I thought reading was going to be a drab for this class, but now I am super stoked.
This is a photo of my mom and I from Valentine's Day. My parents and I went to the beach to watch the sunset. Yes, I was third wheeling, but I wanted to get out of the house because I had felt stuck.
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